unFairwell
This isn't actually my story but a story of my friend who didn't have the chance to say her last fareware to his beloved special friend who is now leaving for good in other country because of one "selfish biatch". The girl only wants to say her last goodbye personally to his beloved 'friend' who will leave the next day but apparently this bitchy girl (or i think it was the guy... not sure) told the girl that she can't anymore meet the guy and told her that never call or even text him. The gurl even asked for a little more time just to say goodbye, but that bitch still refused. The girl actually have no idea or in any reason why this bitch deprived her to see the guy for the last time. I mean why would someone be so selfish that she can't give a little amount of time for that girl to talk and say farewell to her beloved friend? Didn't that bitch realized how much that girl love the guy as a friend she knew for a long time, a friend that became part of her life, and a friend who became so special that she can't accept that he will soon leave and left her alone? Heyya bitch if you only knew how depressed that girl was because of what you did... ggrrr. And to the guy, make up your own mind... don't let other manipulate you, looser!!!Now why did i tell the story of this sad girl?... because somehow i can also relate to what happened to her. I usually don't talk serious matters like *love* ever in my blog but for the sake na valentine season ngayon i think i will share a story which became part of my life and events that i wont forget. (errr nagiging baduy na ulit ako, kainis!) During my highschool days syempre teen - the time we experiment a lot of things and the time we learn how to fall in love. I actually dont know if its really a love or just an infatuation-close-to-love feeling but one thing for sure is that whenever i see this person I feel happy and alam mo yun... basta undefined yung feeling. Ive been with that person just for two years pero feeling ko kilalang-kilala ko na sya. Would you believe I know that person's full name (with middle initial), mother, father, sisters nya, birthday, zodiac sign, favorites, hobbies, address, pati friends nya alam ko at the unbelievable thing is even yung family tree nya ni-research ko at pati signiture nya gayang-gaya ko and before i sleep tinitignan ko pa yung picture nya and wishing na sana mapaniginipan ko sya (ganun ka lufet!). Hanggang ngayon nga hindi ko alam kung bakit ginawa ko yun eh? (stupid love!). But you know the saddest thing, that person never knew the things na ginawa ko para sa kanya or what I know about. May idea sya, pero ang alam nya crush lang but that person never knew or even had an idea kung gaano ko sya ka-love (fcuk ang baduy na talaga, ayoko na). Siguro dahil na rin im afraid of rejection... or ayoko lumayo sya kasi baka mailang paginamin ko. (sigh!) Hindi lang yun, nung graduation, I haven't had even a small single chance to say goodbye to that person kasi masakit magpaalam sa taong naging parte na ng buhay mo kahit sa maikling panahon. And that day also was the last time i saw that person personally. And its been four years, with no contact or even news about that person. After graduation pa nga I was hoping na someday there will be a time na magkakabanggaan ulit kami sa mall or somewhere else (sort of "serendipity") but it didn't happened in any chance or luck. Nung nauso nga yung friendster, sinearch ko pa sya, and luckily i found that person yun nga lang i didn't add that person on my list. Siguro dahil ayoko nang pahirapan pa ang sarili ko ulit sa kanya (at saka baka magfeeling pa yun). Malungkot isipin pero that's life, all you have to do is accept and move on, right?. Pero one thing i really learnt is that kahit na hindi happy ending yung story, at least may magagandang nangyari... na kahit hindi naging maayos yung farewell, feeling ko hindi sya nawalay, alam mo yun... nandun pa rin yung mga happiest memory mo together with that person which matters the most, tapos i consider our friendship as special kahit hindi naging kami at kahit hindi nya alam. Ewan ko nga ba... unique talaga yung feeling... haayyyy when will i encounter again the same feeling that i felt from that person which i considered as my "significant other". Ay naku tama na nga, the song "let the love begin" is starting to play on my mind (iiwwww!) baka mamaya eh maging box office hit pa itong blog ko whehehehe. And for those who will read this blog just keep it yours... let other discover it na lang ha, promise yan.
"Masakit magpaalam sa taong natutunan mo nang mahalin at naging parte na ng buhay mo, pero... mas masakit magpaalam sa taong hindi talaga para sa iyo pero binago takbo ng buhay mo" - sigh! -
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